Tuesday, June 29, 2010

This amazing feeling called love.

Love. It is something I live on day and night. It's like oxygen. It is oxygen.

Sat to write for "Love is all you need" today, finally, when I'm high on lack of sleep, when my eyes are swollen with last night's tears and I'm waiting for his call because he wanted to "talk in detail" about my behavior. Oh, I smiled for the first time since morning right now as I typed 'talk in detail'. You see.. he sounded very scary and really pissed last night and said "I won't let you get away with it this time, we'll talk in detail about this tomorrow, sleep now." and I shivered. But then, I woke up to his messages - "I love you, give me a kiss my vuvuzela"

From 2 nights ago:

Him - I'm sure you read about them being annoying and never noticed otherwise during the match.. :p

Me - Nooo, I noticed the sound the first day only! I didn't know it was called a Vuvuzela but I found the sound very annoying!

Him - Say it again na..

Me - What?? *and then I realised what. He loves it when I mispronounce a word and makes me repeat it* Noooo..!!! hahaha...vuvuzela ~

Him - Vooovooozela doll! I love you so much...*kisskisskisss* you sound so cute baby.

and then I said Vuvuzela 4 times.

Anyway. I am in a long distance relationship, it's been 5 and a half years since we are together. One year since he held my hand, since we kissed, since I saw him off. I still remember the expression on his face, he was trying to be a strong for me but looked so helpless and sad and promised me we'll be together soon. I said bye with tears in my eyes, he kissed my forehead quickly and gave me a look that said "Don't cry or I'll cry now".

6 years since we've been best friends. Though the years seem long to others, they just flew by for me even though we met all of 7 times. But those very few moments are enough to keep us hooked to each other for a lifetime. You don't find the perfect-fit every day, right? And when you do, you don't let it go, you don't give up on it just because you have to wait for a long time to be together. People wonder if I am crazy to be waiting since so long. Sometimes they doubt if these two will ever be together. But I just smile because I know that the people who think I'm screwing my life have never been in love, that kind of love, my kind of love -- ever trusting, ever hoping & forever waiting with dreams in my eyes. And I go on with the blind faith I have in love, in God, in him.

♪ Every night in my dream I see you. I feel you...that is how I know you go on
Far across the distance and spaces between us..you have come to show you go on.
Near, far .. wherever you are..I believe that the heart does go on.
Love can touch us one time and last for a lifetime
And never go till we're one..
Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life we'll always go on

You're here, there's nothing I fear,
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart and my heart will go on and on ♪

Thank You Dip for Sharing the Love.

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  1. i have *respect* for people who make long distance relationships work. hats off to you dip!

  2. Awwwww Dip.


    P.S. I'm going to dance merrily at your wedding.

  3. dip...baby i know and i agree so so so much when you say "ou don't find the perfect-fit every day, right? And when you do, you don't let it go, you don't give up on it just because you have to wait for a long time to be together. "

    I will make a halter neck blouse for your shaadi :) pukka se!! just ask rish to do my tickets pls :)

  4. ohhh Queen, i have put up your link on my new post.some minutes ago !