You asked me for my forgiveness
I was wounded and I refused.
Separate and silent, years slipped by
We grew apart and looked forward.
Then one day our paths collided
And you asked me once again.
I searched deep not knowing why
After such healing I still refused.
Later that night my soul searched
And i realized what I feared
It startled me with its truth
Lurking deep in ugly self denial.
I can't forgive if it means
Setting you free, letting you go
Breaking that tie that keeps you
In my life, bound to me.
If I forgave, we would be
Simply no more, don't you see?
I deny you not from anger
Grudge or revenge, no such irony!
It's simply because, I'm not ready
To be finished loving you yet.
For this reason I must continue
To refuse forgiveness...until I am.
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